One day, a rich dad took his son on a trip. Wanted to show him how poor someone can be. They spent time on the farm of a poor family. On the way home, dad asked, "Did you see how poor they are? What did you learn?".

Son said, "We have one dog, they have four, we have pool, they have rivers, we have lanterns at night, they
have stars, we buy foods, they grow theirs, we have walls to protect us, they have friends, we have encyclopedias, they have Bible."

Then they headed, "Thanks dad for showing me how "poor" we are."

MORAL LESSON: It's not about money that make us rich, it's about simplicity of having God in our lives. Like me,I am grateful for the things I already have. Even though I'm not rich, but I do have a very loving family. And thank you Allah for giving me a good health for me to find sustenance for my family.. :) May God bless me and my family.. Amin..



Wow, it has been more than a week already I didn't update anything in this blog.. Been so busy with my job training.. I am currently working at KidZania.. where I am going to be dealing with KIDS.. There were some of my friends asked me what on earth am I doing in KidZania which I was supposed to be working in any TV station since I took broadcasting last time..

I was just smiling and said, as long I love my job, and I'm happy with it, so it shouldn't be a problem for me.. Plus, I love kids too.. So, what's the big deal? I found this job interesting and fun.. But it's tiring as hell.. Imagine, I came back home at 6, and then going to do my part time job as a tuition teacher from 8 to 10.. I have no choice and need to work harder.. At least I am starting to learn how hard it is to earn money by my own efforts..Even I am willing to be as a janitress if I have to! Rather than being like some girls that only depend on guys to give them money or make themselves cheap to earn more money in an easy way..


With my trainer Miss Maya & Mr Sab.. 
( Look so weird when I tied my hair )



Few days ago I posted an entry about a woman who was sexually abused by her own father. This time is more excruciating.. Maybe some of you have heard about a story of a poor Japanese girl who was brutally murdered by four men.. It was a long time ago but I would like to highlight this story in case some of you never heard of it or maybe had forgotten about it..

Junko Furuta was born in 1972 and lived together with her parents in Saitama, Tokyo..

Junko Furuta was a 16 years old Japanese girl who has been tortured and captivated by four boys. The four boys were senior high school students who decided to captivate her in a house for 44 days. There were so many torturing that Junko got during in the house and of course it made her tortured to death. There were so many unimaginable ways in torturing the Japanese girl and she was raped by the four boys. Furthermore, Junko was also tortured by so many hard things such as barbell and many other things that were horrifying.

DAY 1: November 22, 1988: 
* Kidnapped
* Kept captive in house, and posed as one of boy’s girlfriend
* Raped (over 400 times in total)
* Forced to call her parents and tell them she had run away
* Starved and malnutritioned
* Fed cockroaches to eat and urine to drink
* Forced to masturbate
* Forced to strip in front of others
* Burned with cigarette lighters
* Foreign objects inserted into her vagina/anus

DAY 11: December 1, 1988: 
* Severely beat up countless times
* Face held against concrete ground and jumped on
* Hands tied to ceiling and body used as a punching bag
* Nose filled with so much blood that she can only breath through her mouth
* Dumbbells dropped onto her stomach
* Vomited when tried to drink water (her stomach couldn’t accept it)
* Tried to escape and punished by cigarette burning on arms
* Flammable liquid poured on her feet and legs, then lit on fire
* Bottle inserted into her anus, causing injury

DAY 20: December10, 1989: 
* Unable to walk properly due to severe leg burns
* Beat with bamboo sticks
* Fireworks inserted into anus and lit
* Hands smashed by weights and fingernails cracked
* Beaten with golf club
* Cigarettes inserted into vagina
* Beaten with iron rods repeatedly
* Winter; forced outside to sleep in balcony
* Skewers of grilled chicken inserted into her vagina and anus, causing bleeding

DAY 30: 
* Hot wax dripped onto face
* Eyelids burned by cigarette lighter
* Stabbed with sewing needles in chest area
* Left nipple cut and destroyed with pliers
* Hot light bulb inserted into her vagina
* Heavy bleeding from vagina due to scissors insertion
* Unable to urinate properly
* Injuries were so severe that it took over an hour for her to crawl downstairs and use the bathroom
* Eardrums severely damaged
* Extreme reduced brain size

DAY 40: Begged her torturers to “kill her and get it over with”

January 1, 1989: 
* Junko greets the New Years Day alone
* Body mutilated
* Unable to move from the ground

DAY 44: January 4, 1989: 
The four boys beat her mutilated body with an iron barbell, using a loss at the game of Mah-jongg as a pretext. She is profusely bleeding from her mouth and nose. They put a candle’s flame to her face and eyes. Then, lighter fluid was poured onto her legs, arms, face and stomach, and then lit on fire. This final torture lasted for a time of two hours.

Junko Furuta died later that day, in pain and alone. Nothing could compare 44 days of suffering she had to go through. When her mother heard the news and details of what had happened to her daughter, she fainted. She had to undergo a psychiatric outpatient treatment . Imagine her endless pain. L

Her killers are now free men as the government has made them free.. They deserve a punishment much greater than they had put upon Furuta, for putting an innocent girl through the most unbearable suffering.. 

I hate when some governments and societies failed to defend women's rights.. It is so unfair! I wish I could change the world.. Even though I know it's a impossible thing to do.. So, I stopped wishing and started doing.. That's why I am trying to spread good things to people around me and maybe my efforts are small, but I believe by helping one person can help break a bad cycle and change the future generations. 

And for the late Junko Furuta, may God rest your soul in peace... L


Recently I saw a news on TV about a woman who was allegedly sexually abused through several  years and kept the incest a secret which has finally broke her silence. It took her nine years to muster the courage to lodge a police report exposing what her soldier father did to her.

She is now aged 20, claimed that her father also locked her up in a room when she was 12 and sexually abused her.. She was only given food during those few days and wasn't allowed to attend school..  

She also claimed that there had been occasions when her father tied her to the bed and also inserted objects into her private parts.. Can't imagine how bad the situation was..! She got the courage to lodge a police report after four years only because her aunt had assured her that she wouldn't be harmed.

Her relative claimed the victim told him that her father had raped and sexually abused her.. He also said her mother was aware of the abuse but kept silent because of her husband's fierce character.. She was abused from someone who should have loved her.. 

Rape is frightening and traumatizing. People who have been raped need care, comfort, and a way to heal.
What's the right thing to do if you've been raped? Take care of yourself in the best way for you. For some people, that means reporting the crime immediately and fighting to see the rapist brought to justice. 

For others it means seeking medical or emotional care without reporting the rape as a crime. Every person is different. I understand that, but you were taken advantage of by disgusting people and now you are suffering because of it. It wasn't your fault. Rape is a horrible thing and and you don't have to regret it because it wasn't something you chose and you didn't cause it to happen. 

Remember,you are not alone.. Don't be scared to speak out and talk to someone that can be trust..  Tell a therapist, psychiatrist, counselor, etc. Don't keep quiet, because it is definitely not the right way for you! Don't keep this to yourself!


British English vs American English..

Again, I got an issue with my English! I keep on searching and learning like almost every day so that my English will get better and better.. But I confused between British English and American English. In Malaysia, we use British English.. And for me it is more complicated because I have a problem to understand their slang.. =P  To me, it’s a bit weird..

Last year, I took Malaysian University English Test (MUET). It is a paid test and largely recognized only in Malaysia and Singapore. My result was bad.. L I only got band 3!!!!!! Almost got band 4.. L

An essay will not be a good one if the spelling of words is a problem. There are two sets of spelling in English – British English and American English. The following demonstrates the difference between the two..

Hmm.. no wonder I only got band 3.. I believe I did a lot of spelling mistakes and my slang in English didn’t 
sound like British.. I couldn’t pronounce it normally and my tongue got twisted..!
But I don’t care.. I will keep learning and won’t give up.. Hmm, I seriously need to take English class..



Pencil : I’m sorry

Eraser : For what? You didn’t do anything wrong.

Pencil : I’m sorry because you get hurt because of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you’re always there to erase it. But by doing that, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller.

Eraser : Yes, that’s true, but it’s okay. I don’t mind at all. I was made to do this and to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I’ll be gone and you will replace me with a new one, at least I’m happy with my job. So please stop worrying and don’t be sad. I hate to see you sad.

I found and read this story from my friend on facebook.. It touched me.. Parents are like the eraser while their children are the pencil.. Parents are always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes.. They’ll get hurt, and become older from time to time and slowly gone out from our sight.. Even though their children will find someone new ( husband/wife) but parents are happy for what they do for their children..

What I’m going to say is, please do appreciate your parents and all sacrifices that they made for us.. Because I also can’t even imagine the effort and sacrifice my parents obviously invested into me for all these years..

When my father was still alive, I didn’t even once telling him that how much I love him.. L Until this one time I dreamt about him.. I saw him sitting alone outside.. I slowly went close and sit next to him.. I hugged him and asked,

“Papa… I really really love you.. Do you love me, Pa?”

He silenced for a while, and gave me a gloomy look… He said, “I don’t know”

I was soooo sad and and almost wanted to cry… L L L Then for a second, I woke up.. L I had no idea what was my dream mean.. Now, I only have my mom.. I won’t repeat the same mistakes again and appreciate her more.. 

Please love your parents with all your heart because you never know when God is going to call them home.. Doesn't matter how old or healthy they are.. Because, what is sure, your parents will always love you no matter what...



SHRINK YOUR WAIST SIZE…. Research by University of Tennessee has discovered that taking high-calcium foods like broccoli and spinach may help you reduce weight until 70% and lose 64% belly fat.

LOWER YOUR DAILY SUGAR INTAKE…. Taking 100grams or 8 tablespoons a day of sugar can reduce the ability of white blood cells to kill germs by 40%.

NOT TOO LONG….   Tea is a really healthy beverage because it contains high anti-oxidant. However, don’t let your tea exposed for too long, because it can cause kidney stones. Try to finish it straight away.

THANK YOU INTERNET…. One of the most effective ways for you to lose weight is to surf to the internet about health and diet information. According to researchers from Kaiser Permanente’s Center, Portland they found themselves able to lose weight around 4.5kg by only surveying sites on how to lose weight for once a month.

EAT CHILLIES…. Well eating chilies have been shown by several studies to raise your metabolism by as much as 20%. So maybe chilies are the new super food that can help you lose weight. But be careful, don’t take it too much. As it can probably damage your stomach!

** Wouldn’t it be great if there was a way to raise your metabolism without all the hard work in the gym?  I hate exercise and never like it. But somehow, I have to. L